~Every Love Story Has a Way Out~
Half of nobody; have to be half of somebody, so I wait,
Missing pieces they bind us, broken we scramble for hope,
Empty to be filled, something has to fill us, what a state,
Time, like a rope, it twists and turns everything we ever spoke,
Your eyes have grown dull, your smile like steal, like a statue of cryptic emotion—I swear I’m too late,
So pretty in lavender, so pretty in spring, too afraid to notice, so all you do is joke,
I waited and waited, as dreamers often do, but as feet shifted against gritty asphalt I knew it was me I should hate,
Words dissolve into laughter, pain shrinks back every tear, smiling like a portrait, chiming in on cue, and with every elapsed word, I broke,
Scenes from foolish movies, fragments of fanciful plays, paperback stories of fruition, songs that foretold: promised us a further fate,
If only, we could spill out every shoddy word, befuddled becoming the new poised, candor replacing wit, subtleties in smoke,
To be truthful, flesh and bones did promise us human, sentences and words, promised us a right, but no precedence could assure how this would rate,
You deem yourself strong, but strength can be so weak; you think this is the right thing, but you forgot to remember that even a hero is bound to need, and as words squelch a silence that is screaming to speak, eyes can’t deny eyes, and even you start to choke,
If I could sing a thousand emotions, palm every forgotten tear, fill every empty promise, paint over the scratches in every broken dream and undo every single fear—nothing could sate,
We are what we are, it is what it is; but if you would have let me, I would have tired, for what it’s worth—I would have—but all that’s left is splintered hope,
Half of nobody; have to be half of somebody, so I wait.
Words they restrain us, as the proscribed is all that’s needed to say,
Heartbeats they deceive us, as nothing within something can reveal its state,
Moments, like music, drive us by their highs and lows, a game unfit to play,
Empty eyes deceive me, but in the end, a hallowed core will never sate,
Hold it all together; you can’t just slip away,
Hold it all together; everything won’t stay the same,
To tame the current to turn, to teach the sun to be dark, to stop the world because you want it to, a silly notion to embark,
Off the trail, only to be on the trail, out of the way, only to be in the way,
A viscid of beauty, this mask etching with holes, crying for any cover to conceal the hearts fate,
Time it tortures, as day after day, this struggle cannot find its pay,
Like a web of dreams muddled in pain, a web of truth, founded too late,
Hold it all together; everything won’t stay the same,
To tame the current to turn, to teach the sun to be dark, to stop the world because you want it to, a silly notion to embark,
Though faith cannot cease, as it’s convinced this may one day rate,
Nothing, so sorry to be nothing, something, so hopeful to be something, but to be uncertain, this I cannot pray.
These eyes of insuperable measure, this voice of weakened tone—a paradox that leaves me with nothing left to say.
~Excerpt from "Night"~
As the brightened moon makes shadows mold from its light, does this ever wake you, panicked in a fright,
You move from side to side, afraid you just might fear, and in those scarce moments do you wish someone was near,
A hand reaches for water, eyes blinded by the clock, you think “should I go to the bathroom” or should I just lay in mind games and slowly should I rock,
You give into this annoying task, your bony feet slap onto the floor, and behind the creaking bathroom door, the moon sees your face no more,
Alas, this late night furry ends, alas your fidgets are calm, and as you pull the sheets over your head you are too tired to care what’s going wrong,
But the thoughts they torment, so you moan and pray that someday these thoughts might be okay,
And madness turns to exhaustion, exhaustion succumbs to sleep, and in this night your restless dreams will make efforts in your next days work very hard to think...
2 comments:
Visceral, emotive. I love Melissa poetry hour.
FW poem, please? We could change the name.
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