Joy

Joy. Joy is the feeling you have when filled with God’s love. I remember I heard this at a chapel once and for some reason it has stuck with me. Happiness. Happiness, is the emotion that fills you when worldly things touch you—but joy, joy is overwhelming, beautiful, and truly a God thing.
I am sitting here right now, in a scrambled dorm room, looking at a cloudy bright sky, with about a million things to do, but truly all I can do is sit here and feel this joy from God. I don’t understand it, but that—that is the beauty of it.
There is nothing that special about today; I didn’t get a well deserved A on a paper, I didn’t have any mail from anyone special, I didn’t get to sleep in, I didn’t go buy a new outfit, I didn’t make someone laugh so hard they could hardly breathe, I didn’t get to lay on a warm sandy beach and hear the waves, hug a good friend, make a noticeable difference in someone’s life, no exciting love story, no good news from a friend or family member, and no surprises. But God, God has blessed me with joy, he is all I need, he has filled me with his overwhelming love, and though 75% of the time I tend to focus on what I want from God…..no, I do not feel this. I say God, you—you are enough.
“As I wait you make me strong, as I long, drawl me to your arms, as I stand and sing your praise—you come, you come and fill this place.”