When God closes doors

Have you ever heard the expression, "Like a bull in a china shop"?  It basically means you're awkward.  But I think it means more than that.  A bull in a china shop is really in a fail-fail situation, unless the bull no longer remains true to its bull-like nature, it is going to knock something, if not everything, over.

Lately, I've felt a little like this.  What I mean is, God just keeps closing doors.  And he's not gently closing them, he's pretty much slamming them shut.  For the most part I'm thankful for this, I certainly don't want to invest in something that is not where I'm suppose to be, but in another way, I'm frustrated.  More than that though, I'm tired.  Tired of trying and failing.

There are huge blessings in my life: health, family, friendships, boyfriend, even my living situation, but my time is where it becomes tough.  I have so much of it, and every time I try to find a way to use it, God slams the door.  I've been on countless job interviews, and don't even get call backs, and I tried signing up for a summer class but was shot down because I don't have the prerequisite, yet the level that I do need it completely full.  I work a job that often forgets to pay me (don't worry, I eventually get paid), and barely gives me enough hours to pay my bills ...

Alright, enough venting: I know things will work out.  I am confident God is shutting these doors as a means of protecting me, and that he has another door -- a far better one -- waiting, somewhere around the bend.  Just pray that I can be patient and thankful for what I do have, because let's face it, when we're not in God's will, we are pretty much as unsuccessful as a bull in a china shop.